Happiness

Midnight Sun…..

Midnight Sun

Tiny yellow lights, On big green trees,

Along the sidewalks, in our dreams,

where we walk, at midnight,

Beside the moonlit path, of white pleasures,

Craving your presence, I walked once here,

But now my love, I walk still here,

With you,

Never wake me up, from this heavenly dream,

Let this be my reality, to my grave,

This dream is, what I’ve been looking for,

All my life I searched, but here I found,

In my reality so you, seeming like a dream,

You don’t really know, how my heart talks to my bones,

Of mighty tales, of beating fast,

With every borrowed, touch of yours

I wish for this night, to never end,

For I don’t need no Morning light,

As you are my Midnight Sun, Under

These Northern Lights, of our shimmering love,

Sheltering our bodies in our arms, we thrive,

On each other’s breaths, feeding on your heartbeats,

We shall survive in my “dream”, My reality,

Shine away my Love, my Midnight Sun….

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The Soul Wound

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You know why shattered pieces of glass are better in your hand… All that you need, to remove them are a pair of tweezers… But Dreams… Oh my! Dreams, when they shatter… They shatter within you… Inside your soul… Where no tweezers or doctors have ever reached or ever will… They rupture your very being, you know… But I took this chance for you… Knowing you’re worth every bit the wound, no matter its degree of pain… As it’ll heal… It’ll heal with every smile of yours… My soul will inflate itself again to fill me full… With happiness borrowed from yours….

Stars And Love…..

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An ocean of emotions, at a distance but not from the soul…

A wildfire of passion, burning but parts of my mould…

A manifestation of sorts, deep rooted within me…

Your love is what everything to me, there is to see…

Exciting as it is, the thought in itself…

Listen to my words, do not pretend to be deaf…

For mutuality it craves, craves the warmth of your palm…

An electrifying moment in your eyes, a reflection of me but calm…

Flowing through my cracks, an exciting love like the dawn…

One at dusk, which won’t fall but glide across like glowing neon…

Light it will spread, to my body and soul like you do…

Our love will be every star, we’ll gaze at from our roof…

Oh these stars, that make you smile everytime…

I wish I could I die, so I’d see you smile far in time…

When no other star will survive, but I will…

To keep that smile, where it belongs to be still…

On your petal like lips, so lustrous and pure…

Like your heart, is my only cure…

Just lay still by me, keep looking beyond…

The grey highlights of the moon, of which you are fond…

I’d live like this, If I had to for nights to come…

To see your cheeks sparkle, of love called by some…

You say you love stars, to see them through clear ceilings…

Or mountain tops so high, But baby its these little things…

That you say, make my heart melt and mind sway…

To a distant world, we’ll call our own someday…

How you like to say happy, over and over again…

Pretend to not understand, my flirty remarks and refrain…

Cute is a word, that hardly come close to what I want to call you…

But helpless I stand, because there is no word in the dictionary too…

But just a light feeling of flight, In my heart thinking of your smile so dove…

This roof is my new home, because of our Stars and Love….

 

 

 

They Wont Matter……

They won't Matter

 

I may not have lived entirely…

But I’d give away a part of me, everyday…

To be with you….

 

I may not know how to swim…

But I’d jump every time you are drowning…

To still try and save you….

 

I may have a fear of heights…

But I’d hold you by cliff’s edge whenever…

You want me to….

 

I may not be the fastest runner…

But I’d run like a pro time and again…

For a chance to see you….

 

I may not be more than Human…

But I’d always take birth over and over again…

If I could be yours….

 

I may not have stable hands…

But I’d hold them stable with my other…

Just to feel you….

 

I may not have special powers…

But I’d amaze you with magic of love you taught me of…

Because I do and always will, love you….

 

So don’t you ever let me go…

Just stay in my silhouette, above my shadow…

And they won’t matter…..

All That I Want…..

All that I want

I want to push down these walls of regret…

Don’t want no more thoughts of love’s freight…

I want to be able to feel it again in my strings…

With every beat to feel the little things…

You do, that makes me feel dizzy and alive…

Make me breathe in you, and survive…

You wink to make my heart beat so fast everytime…

I don’t know If you feel the same way, at this prime…

But the way that you smile with your tiny eyes…

Makes me fall over and over again, no lies…

I want to be lost in you forever, no matter the light…

You feel like my sun, shine through me bright…

Read all you want, these inscriptions of your name…

scribbled on my bones, protect my heart from this game…

I want to shout off the rooftop, of you, me and us…

To form shapes of us, on the cloud’s bus…

And travel the world together, always under the silver lining…

That you are to my life, and meaning to my reasoning…

Let’s not exploit this moment by words of my heart…

I want to save them for my eyes to tell you of hurt…

That I never will let you see, no matter the result…

I lay open for you to pick up, My chest open and cut…

My heart that resides inside, throbbing off your presence…

Living by the beat, off you and your essence…

The world seems better, visions are clearer…

And the future becomes desirable and nearer…

I’ve been living in the dark, for quite sometime…

I’m used to it, But you make me want to feel light this time…

You being my light, I need no prophecies…

Or tall tales of hope, dealing in intricacies…

I know of you, and me in these little gestures…

I want to feel you, and all of your sublime textures….

 

Walls of Loneliness….

Its been a silent life….its as if the silence is speaking to me…its asking me….why??? why am I putting up with my state in which I am right now….its an old story…. that has been going on for many years now…..but I still have no answer for it…..I only answer with my stillness…..I sometimes feel so lonely….that it feels like I’m trapped in a room without any doors or windows….no connection with the world outside whatsoever….. just, an empty room….which was probably made out of the walls of a fallen building….where once happiness resided….contentment roamed around along with the air…. but now its just me…and my friend Ms.Silence…. I feel so suffocated….and there is so much room for me to roam around inside….but absolutely nothing to do….I just sit in one corner of the room, with my legs folded….and as soon as I sit every time…..the thorns of my past…start to prick me….I shout….I scream….but what’s the use….there’s no one to hear me….It really hurts when you want to say something….but no one’s listening….I have numerous emotions…feelings….words rushing down my veins…that I feel like cutting it off….so that at least they can flow out….

Its so dark in here….and I feel cold….so much so that I have forgotten the warmth of the human touch….But I’m still alive….you can’t even imagine how happy that makes me whenever I realise that….that is the sole source of happiness for me….even this happiness feels borrowed now….its not my own anymore….and my memories…they haunt me now….even the good one’s, it seems are teasing me…telling me…. I’ll never be able to have or feel those moments again….I pull my hair in torment…..and yell….what should I fucking do….where the hell should I bloody go….to shoo these memories away from me….because hell seems better from where I’m sitting….at one point…these were my closest and the only source of contentment…..just like my every breath is to my happiness right now…..then I realise….will this also go away from me….will I fall in such misery….that my source of happiness shall become my source of unhappiness….is that the end…..of this horrid experience….

Then silence speaks again….She says….meet my friend hope….you can’t imagine the relief I get when I see her…even today when I’m alone….she comes to meet me and tells me…”one day you will”…..and these four words become my ultimate source…..of happiness….contentment….and strength….Even though I’m still trapped here….I still have hope….!!!