Feeling

To Hold Her…..

For a time you hold so dearly
in your heart a desire to hold them tight, visualising them running into your arms like in a vintage movie with a burning desire matching that of yourself…  As soon as you see them during the time that never seems to pass by…
But when that moment arrives, all we are left with are a few uttered syllables in an ever so dry mouth and a crooked smile of unexpectance even though it was very expected…
Why is it so that the heart starts to beat faster than ever, at that very moment…
And we are left with no strength whatsoever to just go up to them and hug them right…
I missed her every single minute she was away, yet all I had to give her was an awkward smile when I saw her…
The truth behind it was more painful than one would imagine, the horrors of a broken heart are way beyond the unknown and the answers to why this feeling is everlasting is still a question mark…
Everytime she smiles, my heart seems to skip a beat, a state of nirvana is what my soul describes it to be…

Her eyes, they twinkle like the light of a million galaxies was trapped in them at their mercy to show them light…

Oh and when she talks, I can barely concentrate on the words that she speaks, instead I lose myself in the oh so sweet sound of her voice my ears were meant to hear, Day and Night! 

Yet, Now just thoughts of holding her till eternity in my arms, haunt me…

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Midnight Sun…..

Midnight Sun

Tiny yellow lights, On big green trees,

Along the sidewalks, in our dreams,

where we walk, at midnight,

Beside the moonlit path, of white pleasures,

Craving your presence, I walked once here,

But now my love, I walk still here,

With you,

Never wake me up, from this heavenly dream,

Let this be my reality, to my grave,

This dream is, what I’ve been looking for,

All my life I searched, but here I found,

In my reality so you, seeming like a dream,

You don’t really know, how my heart talks to my bones,

Of mighty tales, of beating fast,

With every borrowed, touch of yours

I wish for this night, to never end,

For I don’t need no Morning light,

As you are my Midnight Sun, Under

These Northern Lights, of our shimmering love,

Sheltering our bodies in our arms, we thrive,

On each other’s breaths, feeding on your heartbeats,

We shall survive in my “dream”, My reality,

Shine away my Love, my Midnight Sun….

They Wont Matter……

They won't Matter

 

I may not have lived entirely…

But I’d give away a part of me, everyday…

To be with you….

 

I may not know how to swim…

But I’d jump every time you are drowning…

To still try and save you….

 

I may have a fear of heights…

But I’d hold you by cliff’s edge whenever…

You want me to….

 

I may not be the fastest runner…

But I’d run like a pro time and again…

For a chance to see you….

 

I may not be more than Human…

But I’d always take birth over and over again…

If I could be yours….

 

I may not have stable hands…

But I’d hold them stable with my other…

Just to feel you….

 

I may not have special powers…

But I’d amaze you with magic of love you taught me of…

Because I do and always will, love you….

 

So don’t you ever let me go…

Just stay in my silhouette, above my shadow…

And they won’t matter…..

The Vision…..

The vision

A vision I have when I think of you…

A little blur, a little clear too…

The clarity of your pretty face…

A blur of the watch I embrace…

A tree, out of a Robert Frost poem…

A bench under, out of my grandma’s backyard thumb…

And you, lying on it with your head on my leg…

Looking up at the swaying branches, vague…

Smiling for no reason, me caressing your forehead…

You holding my hand tighter, by the diminishing sunbed…

Your pink cheeks and these crimson lights…

A vision to love and a heart taking flights…

Dreaming together, of what we must be…

To satisfy our souls, to elope or to flee…

Or just be in this paused dimension…

To wander in this love comprehension…

Where our eyes collide, from far but close…

The angel in you, striking a pose…

Emptiness or a hollow, it feels like then…

When I turn my face, and count to ten…

the loss of your face, from vision not blurred…

The world seems a blur, in seconds that purred…

I need you in me now, to breathe again…

To live by your side, in my vision mundane…

Just stay here a little longer, till I soak it in…

You my vision, my souls’ twin…

Let our breaths crash, to your heartbeat divine…

Let loose your lips, in me entwine…

Lets lay on the grass, and feel this moment…

To live without you, is such a torment…

The skies are creating shelters of love…

Let me drown in you, your heart so dove…

From two to one, our souls will strum…

This vision I’ll trap, In our love drum…

It will roll with us, wherever we are…

This time we’ll leave, no wound or scar…

Just Love, Faith and Trust…

And marks of stardust, from our wanderlust….

A Hopeful Fairytale…..

A hopeful fairytale

It won’t be an overstated truth to say that the past few days have been quite, both overwhelming emotionally and soulfully delightful. A simple look from you stir’s such a vibrant ocean of feelings that have been quite rare to me in recent times. Oh, those big eyes of yours makes my heart beat so fast like it has to pump that much to keep me sane with the way I remain breathless. Every time you smile, you light up my evening like a million stars couldn’t even if they tried. Every word you utter, leaves me struggling myself out of the sheer compassion it brings to my light of day or night. You actually are the light now. I’m scared, I’m scared of losing you in this oh so judgemental time we strive to survive in. The past has taught us way too much we, for some reason, which we didn’t have to learn. It’s you I was looking for, my soul gave me a hiccup as soon as I saw you for the first time. I believe faith brought us together for a higher purpose of maintaining the value of Love which has been long lost along the lines of civilisation. I promise you not much but just this, that till you don’t give up on us I will make it my life’s purpose to make you smile everyday till time will spare me. It’s you I need to see first, even before the first ray of sunshine hits my window, because you are the light that keeps me going baby. It’s you I need to see last even after my dream is over, because you are my dream baby. It’s you all around and as overwhelming as these words are, I am too. I don’t know how so fast my life took a turn and swirled, and swirled with dripping madness, just to be by your side and see you by mine, holding my hand smiling at me with the very kind compassion only you posses in your eyes, I so love every bit of. It’s refreshing how honest you are, with nothing to prove or potray; just like those innocent drops of dew on the very first winter morning. This is my reality, and I’m glad its you and I, we found. It’s very hard to describe these unworldly feelings of infatuation or puppy love some may say (let them). It does not seem to matter anymore, nothing seems to be right or wrong when you’re around. It’s like the soul companies are conspiring to make me fall for you over and over again everyday. Don’t be overwhelmed, I beg of you, stay calm and look into my eyes, take a walk by the beach with me on a moonlit night, where shadows of vanilla twilight will form a path across the seas, so magnificent, so pure, so lively. Just like you my dear. I believe in fairy tales, and ours has just begun. All I hope for my love, is the Happy Ending with me and you in each other’s arms facing the cruel reality of ageing fiercely with love and nothing but love…..